By: Lyn Patterson
@poetryntings
I’ve been in recovery for 15 years now
a silent struggle I’ve endured
when a huge part of your identity is being skinny
and tragedy forces you to alternate reality
the desperation will cause you
to cause you harm
at breakfast I force it down
at lunch I feel guilt
over indulgence
at dinner I despair
I avoid mirrors after meals
I blame clothes for calories
I talk to no one
when loss sparks relapse
and pain can’t be manifested
the little voice in my head
relishes in the easy way out…
hunger becomes difficult to recognize
I’ve been in recovery for 15 years now
but eating is still hard work…
#ThatGirlCanWrite 